Tuesday, May 27, 2008 7:41 a.m.
This “routine” thing is really working out for me (even though it’s harder than hell to stick to and I’ve only managed to do it for the past two days), although I don’t know why it shouldn’t and why I didn’t try it earlier. The negative voice in my head [...]
Archive for May, 2008
Dreams of Being “Goddamn Hurricane”
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, PTSD, trauma on May 27, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Negative. Me?
Posted in Daily, Family, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma, willfulness on May 26, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Monday, May 26, 2008 9:40 a.m.
Saturday is almost not worth mentioning. Therapy was a little too…something. I was angry, irritable, WILLFUL. And apparently, I contribute to my own misery with my focus on the negative. No one wants to hear that shit. It hurts, even if it’s true.
So then I went to Dad’s and slept [...]
And I Said “FUCK OFF WORLD”
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, mindfulness, music, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma, willfulness on May 24, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Saturday, May 24, 2008 6:49 a.m.
WARNING — if you are offended by cursing, you should not read this entry
Yesterday was extremely difficult. I woke up and I was irritable. And willful (DBT term meaning not open, opposite of willing, not wanting to work on myself, not wanting to listen to advice, not wanting to expose [...]
Cloudy, Partial Sunshine
Posted in Daily, Family, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, depression, Klonopin, music, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma on May 23, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Friday, May 23, 2008 8:05 a.m.
I went and visited my sister and her boyfriend in the big city on Wednesday and invited myself to stay the night, because I was having such a good time. We didn’t do anything really spectacular, mostly just sat and chatted (and let’s not forget the fabulous ice cream), but [...]
Reviving Blog After Four Day Vacation
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, music, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma on May 21, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Okay, so maybe vacation isn’t the right word. If anything, I didn’t need to take a break from my blog…actually, it was one of the worst possible things I could do, because instead of getting it down and off my chest, all of the bullshit stayed inside my head and just repeated [...]
No News, Not Necessarily Good News
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, PTSD, trauma on May 16, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Friday, May 16, 2008 6:11 a.m.
It has been a few days since I have blogged. Again, a combination of not taking time to fit it into my schedule and having problems sneaking in some computer time with my work-a-holic busy mother. I mean seriously, she has three jobs. Time to quit one, Madre (which I [...]
Hanging On, Hanging In
Posted in Daily, Family, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, love, PTSD, trauma on May 14, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 6:01 a.m.
Okay, so I have had this nagging feeling that there has been something I haven’t been doing…that there is something that’s missing. Pasha wrote a comment that prompted me to realize what it was. I haven’t blogged since Sunday morning, and here it is Tuesday morning. I’ve been thrown out [...]
Momma Cures What Ails Ya’
Posted in Family, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, love, PTSD, sleep, trauma on May 11, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Sunday, May 11, 2008 8:55 a.m.
Okay, so maybe the word “cures” is a little strong, but being here at Mom and DHut’s is like practicing distraction techniques all day long. It’s not so great when they’re not here. I spent yesterday afternoon by myself and went to Dad’s very briefly and felt pretty shitty until they [...]
Reality Check
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, DBT diary card, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, dogs, mindfulness, mixed episode, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma on May 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Saturday, May 10, 2008 2:48 p.m.
Same old shit with a little twist on Friday. Depressed, anxious, self-loathing blah blah blah blah. I did a lot of numbing on Friday. Went to IOP, had a hard time listening and learning, which is, of course, what I am there for. I just couldn’t tune in, the tape [...]
Nothing Changes
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, mixed episode, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma on May 9, 2008 | 5 Comments »
Friday, May 9, 2008 8:08 a.m.
Yesterday was rough. I know, I know. Broken record. I felt really overly-energized, hyped-up, anxious, etc in the morning.
Group was pretty ick, mostly because I didn’t sleep well the night before. I kind of stumbled through the 9:00 a.m. group, then we shared diary cards. That was fine. Then, the [...]
