Today has been a week of realizing and, eventually, accepting that my general anxiety level has risen to ridiculous levels over the past few weeks. For a little while, around the time that Sondra started getting sick I started having a lot of problems with depression — lack of motivation, feelings of hopelessness, extreme sadness, [...]
Posts Tagged ‘anxiety’
Permission to Abort Operation Anxiety
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, forgiveness, irritation, love, meditation, mindfulness, obsession, obsessive thinking, obsessive thoughts, OCD, panic attack, sacred self, self-esteem, willingness on July 18, 2009 | 3 Comments »
The Battle of Perfectionism
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, compulsions, obsessions, OCD, perfectionism on June 3, 2009 | 7 Comments »
Dr. Love said it best: “You need to live in the real world. I live in the real world and I need you to be in it.”
About 75% of my anxiety comes from the struggle for perfection in my every day life. I went to work yesterday with the thought that everything was going just [...]
Opposite to Emotion
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, death, fear, funerals, grief, sadness, The Wallflowers on May 29, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I’ve gone a long time without a post, even for me. Without making excuses, I’ve had a lot of stressful crap come up lately and have been drowning doing my best to keep my shit together.
My godmother, Sondra, died last Saturday. It was expected, but it continues to baffle me just how much it is [...]
Fuzzy Wuzzy
Posted in Daily, tagged "me" time, anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, employment, in-laws, love, meditation, mental health, music, numbing, opposite-to-emotion, relationships, willfulness, willingness, work on April 23, 2009 | 1 Comment »
I have discovered the key to being happy at work — I have to be busy. When I have a “paperwork day,” I end up goofing around and not getting anything done. When I have inmates scheduled all day, I’m all over it and get everything on my “to-do” list done. That overwhelmed feeling that [...]
Radical Acceptance of Fear
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, control, DBT, dialectical behavior therapy, fear, love, mindfulness, obsession, panic attacks, radical acceptance, relationships on April 22, 2009 | 3 Comments »
My inner self-critic has been working overtime lately. It has led to a lot of anxiety, leading to tummy problems, sleepless nights, crying spells. Granted, life has been a bit stressful lately, but DAMN. I hate feeling this way.
Of course, I need to start doing something about this — panic attacks are just no fun [...]
So Say We All
Posted in Family, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, cancer, death, depression, Family, grief, love, mental health, relationships on April 14, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I have been meaning to blog for the past week, but keep putting it off. It seems like every day I have all of these thoughts that I would like to get down, but have no motivation to do it. Instead of going back over the past several days, I am going to just write [...]
Work and Play
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, employment, finances, home decor, mindfulness, music, plants, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, self-soothe, willingness on March 27, 2009 | 3 Comments »
The weekend has officially started. On Fridays I work such a short day because of over-time earlier in the week that I don’t really count it as a weekday. For example, today I’m going to work 9:30 – 3:30 with 30 minutes for lunch. Can’t beat that with a stick.
I have a co-worker in another [...]
w00t w00t!
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, effectiveness, employment, happiness, Health, love, mindfulness, music, PTSD, radical acceptance, sacred self, self-soothe, weight loss, willingness on March 24, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Nothing like a lack of blogging to make one think. Or not think, for that matter. I have spent the last month pretending like my new job is not stressing me out. Part of me thinks that this job can’t possibly be stressful, because that would mean that I am symptomatic. Well, that’s just not [...]
Giving New Meaning to the Phrase “TGIF”
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, diet, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, employment, Health, mindfulness, music, PTSD, radical acceptance, sacred self, self-soothe, willingness on March 7, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Hallelujah, baby…it’s the weekend! And I’m not sure where my cell phone is, and that’s ok. I’m not worried about the stupid things my clients might do, the 2 a.m. crisis calls I might have to field, the irate landlords calling at 6:00 a.m., or the local hospitals blowing up my phone 24/7. I know [...]
