Today has been a week of realizing and, eventually, accepting that my general anxiety level has risen to ridiculous levels over the past few weeks. For a little while, around the time that Sondra started getting sick I started having a lot of problems with depression — lack of motivation, feelings of hopelessness, extreme sadness, [...]
Posts Tagged ‘conflict’
Permission to Abort Operation Anxiety
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, forgiveness, irritation, love, meditation, mindfulness, obsession, obsessive thinking, obsessive thoughts, OCD, panic attack, sacred self, self-esteem, willingness on July 18, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Giving New Meaning to the Phrase “TGIF”
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, diet, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, employment, Health, mindfulness, music, PTSD, radical acceptance, sacred self, self-soothe, willingness on March 7, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Hallelujah, baby…it’s the weekend! And I’m not sure where my cell phone is, and that’s ok. I’m not worried about the stupid things my clients might do, the 2 a.m. crisis calls I might have to field, the irate landlords calling at 6:00 a.m., or the local hospitals blowing up my phone 24/7. I know [...]
What’s Up, Doc?
Posted in Daily, Health, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, conflict, DBT, depression, diabetes, dialectical behavior therapy, diet, dogs, employment, Klonopin, love, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, sleep apnea, trauma, weight loss, willingness on February 3, 2009 | 1 Comment »
After three straight days of minimal sleep, I passed out on the couch last night, watching Medium, that we had DVR’d from earlier in the evening. DVR is a beautiful thing. I’m still not used to having a fancy TV or cable, and when I found out that we could set it to automatically record [...]
The Thoughts That Weren’t Lost
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, Bob Dylan, catastrophizing, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, legal drugs, love, mixed episode, music, nightmares, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, trauma on January 15, 2009 | 5 Comments »
I have a lot to say tonight. So much, that I know I will forget some of it, that I won’t get it down on paper and that thought will be lost until I think it again. All of these tiny thoughts, big thoughts left in the dark. Dead, really, until I can find them [...]
Avoidance
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, catastrophizing, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, guilt, happiness, hope, independence, joy, mindfulness, PTSD, radical acceptance, self-soothe, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It has been over two weeks since I have last blogged. Almost three, in fact. And I really haven’t been keeping it up too well since August, even though I see it as a valuable tool. I have been choosing not to use it.
Don’t get me wrong. I get on the computer at least once [...]
What I Know Now
Posted in Daily, Family, tagged conflict, happiness, independence on September 8, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It is late and I must get to bed soon, but I felt a burning desire to post, not unlike the desperate need to pee when I’m about one hour into my shift and have been drinking Diet Coke all morning.
I am working pretty much full-time at the home improvement store and have been for [...]
Getting it Together…Maybe
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged Bipolar, conflict, sleep, weight loss on March 20, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Another night of little sleep. I figured that when I took a nap at Mom’s before Ab came into town that it would mess up my schedule a bit, but that I had missed so much sleep already that I would be able to sleep at least 6 hours.
I ended up going to bed around [...]
The Bitch Inside of Me
Posted in Daily, tagged conflict, employment, forgiveness on March 18, 2008 | 2 Comments »
When Curly Fat started at the agency, I judged her based upon a few short conversations. I got my panties in a bunch because she pointed out my short-comings with eating and smoking. I wanted her to mind her own business and just work. I also judged her, what with her tongue ring and love [...]
Dear Grandma
Posted in Family, tagged conflict, forgiveness, guilt on March 18, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I don’t know what to say to you that will make you feel better, and that hurts me. I feel like I have all of this training and useless knowledge about how to help someone who is depressed, and it doesn’t apply. I feel like there is more I should be doing, and I know [...]
Making Amends
Posted in Daily, tagged conflict, forgiveness on March 13, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I spent most of Tuesday evening with my panties in a bunch, thinking about how irritated I was with Curly Fat. I don’t enjoy conflict and the thought of trying to ignore her for, um, I dunno, the rest of the time I work at the agency seemed overwhelming.
After giving it a great deal of [...]
