Today has been a week of realizing and, eventually, accepting that my general anxiety level has risen to ridiculous levels over the past few weeks. For a little while, around the time that Sondra started getting sick I started having a lot of problems with depression — lack of motivation, feelings of hopelessness, extreme sadness, [...]
Posts Tagged ‘forgiveness’
Permission to Abort Operation Anxiety
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, forgiveness, irritation, love, meditation, mindfulness, obsession, obsessive thinking, obsessive thoughts, OCD, panic attack, sacred self, self-esteem, willingness on July 18, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Brain Dump
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, forgiveness, guilt, happiness, hope, independence, joy, love, mindfulness, music, nightmares, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 28, 2008 | 2 Comments »
For the final 118 minutes of today, Saturday, the 27th of December, year of our Lord 2008, I am going to not care about what anyone thinks of me. I have spent far too much time today consumed by it. I am also not going to worry about that which I cannot change, which I [...]
The Bitch Inside of Me
Posted in Daily, tagged conflict, employment, forgiveness on March 18, 2008 | 2 Comments »
When Curly Fat started at the agency, I judged her based upon a few short conversations. I got my panties in a bunch because she pointed out my short-comings with eating and smoking. I wanted her to mind her own business and just work. I also judged her, what with her tongue ring and love [...]
Dear Grandma
Posted in Family, tagged conflict, forgiveness, guilt on March 18, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I don’t know what to say to you that will make you feel better, and that hurts me. I feel like I have all of this training and useless knowledge about how to help someone who is depressed, and it doesn’t apply. I feel like there is more I should be doing, and I know [...]
Making Amends
Posted in Daily, tagged conflict, forgiveness on March 13, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I spent most of Tuesday evening with my panties in a bunch, thinking about how irritated I was with Curly Fat. I don’t enjoy conflict and the thought of trying to ignore her for, um, I dunno, the rest of the time I work at the agency seemed overwhelming.
After giving it a great deal of [...]
The Skinny on Curly Fat
Posted in Health, tagged conflict, forgiveness, sleep, weight loss on March 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Today, I will strive to be productive, as I was a lazy-ass yesterday. I worked about a half day and then came home and slept because I only had about four hours of sleep the night before. Of course, this caused me to get up this morning at 3:30, so I will need to not [...]
