I am fairly out of it this morning…keep that in mind as you are reading and wondering if I am drunk.
Between starting a new job, tapering off Klonopin, and taking care of an unemployed and depressed Dr. Love, I have failed to blog regularly. I believe my last blog was almost a month [...]
Posts Tagged ‘legal drugs’
Falling Off the Face of the Earth
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, diet, employment, finances, Klonopin, legal drugs, PTSD, relationships, sleep, trauma, weight loss on February 27, 2009 | 5 Comments »
The Thoughts That Weren’t Lost
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, Bob Dylan, catastrophizing, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, legal drugs, love, mixed episode, music, nightmares, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, trauma on January 15, 2009 | 5 Comments »
I have a lot to say tonight. So much, that I know I will forget some of it, that I won’t get it down on paper and that thought will be lost until I think it again. All of these tiny thoughts, big thoughts left in the dark. Dead, really, until I can find them [...]
Gotta Do What You’ve Gotta Do
Posted in Health, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, happiness, hope, independence, joy, Klonopin, legal drugs, love, mindfulness, mixed episode, nightmares, organization, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 27, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m barely able to keep my eyes open this morning, even though I was a good girl and went to bed at a decent time last night and got about 8 hours of sleep. I just have energy. I think it has a lot to do with the cyproheptadine I took last night. My old [...]
Human Again?
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, legal drugs, music, nightmares, PTSD, sleep, trauma on April 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Two nights in a row now, I have slept almost seven hours (each night). Nightmares have been limited and I would like to point out that on both of these nights, I was not taking two of the sleeping meds (because my new Pdoc discontinued them) that Dr. Rx had me on. I think it [...]
Just the Facts, Ma’am
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, Klonopin, legal drugs, music, nightmares, PTSD, trauma on April 24, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I started IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) yesterday. It was overwhelming, but I had a sense of satisfaction that I was doing something productive to help myself.
I was able to see a doctor, because someone had cancelled their appointment at 10:00 a.m. So much different than the programs at the agency where I work. The support [...]
Humpty Dumpty Fell Off the Wall
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, legal drugs, nightmares, PTSD, trauma on April 20, 2008 | 2 Comments »
My dog is sleeping in my bed. She looks peaceful, even though she has been on a tear all day. And here I am, up in the middle of the night, typing away because there is no one to talk to right now.
My house is a safe place and it is the only place I [...]
Let it Be
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, legal drugs, nightmares, PTSD, sleep on April 8, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Certain behaviors manifest themselves in my life and I do my best to ignore them. I am dishonest with my treaters, not bringing them up because it just doesn’t seem important. Sometimes I let something slip to my mom, and that is when the shit really seems to hit the fan.
There was the time when [...]
My Toxic Body
Posted in Health, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, legal drugs, nightmares, PTSD, sleep on April 1, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I survived Monday…barely. It wasn’t really that busy, because a couple of my appointments cancelled, but I still felt like I was running around like a crazy person, even though I only worked six hours. Spent an hour at lunch with Dad, an hour running some errands, and an hour checking in on the folk’s [...]
The Smell of Sleep in the Morning
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged legal drugs, sleep on March 27, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Okay, so sleep in the morning smells like…sweat, dog (Kizz sleeps by my head), and FeBreeze (sp?). I fell asleep on the couch last night around 6:00 p.m., slept through until about 1:00 a.m., and then got up for two hours. I obviously don’t have this down to a science yet. I did go back [...]
Bright Shiny Hope
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged legal drugs, nightmares, PTSD, sleep on March 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I know a few posts ago, I talked about my feelings about not being able to sleep, of having nightmares, of things that go bump in the night. Isn’t it funny that, sometimes, when we talk about such things, good things happen?
I slept for five hours straight on Sunday night. That hasn’t happened in a [...]
