Today has been a week of realizing and, eventually, accepting that my general anxiety level has risen to ridiculous levels over the past few weeks. For a little while, around the time that Sondra started getting sick I started having a lot of problems with depression — lack of motivation, feelings of hopelessness, extreme sadness, [...]
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Permission to Abort Operation Anxiety
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, forgiveness, irritation, love, meditation, mindfulness, obsession, obsessive thinking, obsessive thoughts, OCD, panic attack, sacred self, self-esteem, willingness on July 18, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Fuzzy Wuzzy
Posted in Daily, tagged "me" time, anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, employment, in-laws, love, meditation, mental health, music, numbing, opposite-to-emotion, relationships, willfulness, willingness, work on April 23, 2009 | 1 Comment »
I have discovered the key to being happy at work — I have to be busy. When I have a “paperwork day,” I end up goofing around and not getting anything done. When I have inmates scheduled all day, I’m all over it and get everything on my “to-do” list done. That overwhelmed feeling that [...]
Radical Acceptance of Fear
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, control, DBT, dialectical behavior therapy, fear, love, mindfulness, obsession, panic attacks, radical acceptance, relationships on April 22, 2009 | 3 Comments »
My inner self-critic has been working overtime lately. It has led to a lot of anxiety, leading to tummy problems, sleepless nights, crying spells. Granted, life has been a bit stressful lately, but DAMN. I hate feeling this way.
Of course, I need to start doing something about this — panic attacks are just no fun [...]
Doing it My Way
Posted in Daily, tagged boundaries, distress tolerance, Family, in-laws, love, radical acceptance, relationships, renovation on April 18, 2009 | 5 Comments »
I am in MB this weekend with Dr. Love, visiting his parents. It is something I looked forward to and dreaded. I’m here because Dr. Love wants me to be, and that is enough.
I look forward to coming here because it is a great break — no cooking, cleaning, chores to do…I can just relax. If I [...]
So Say We All
Posted in Family, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, cancer, death, depression, Family, grief, love, mental health, relationships on April 14, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I have been meaning to blog for the past week, but keep putting it off. It seems like every day I have all of these thoughts that I would like to get down, but have no motivation to do it. Instead of going back over the past several days, I am going to just write [...]
w00t w00t!
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, effectiveness, employment, happiness, Health, love, mindfulness, music, PTSD, radical acceptance, sacred self, self-soothe, weight loss, willingness on March 24, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Nothing like a lack of blogging to make one think. Or not think, for that matter. I have spent the last month pretending like my new job is not stressing me out. Part of me thinks that this job can’t possibly be stressful, because that would mean that I am symptomatic. Well, that’s just not [...]
What’s Up, Doc?
Posted in Daily, Health, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, conflict, DBT, depression, diabetes, dialectical behavior therapy, diet, dogs, employment, Klonopin, love, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, sleep apnea, trauma, weight loss, willingness on February 3, 2009 | 1 Comment »
After three straight days of minimal sleep, I passed out on the couch last night, watching Medium, that we had DVR’d from earlier in the evening. DVR is a beautiful thing. I’m still not used to having a fancy TV or cable, and when I found out that we could set it to automatically record [...]
The Pieces Fall Together
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, finances, happiness, hope, independence, joy, love, mindfulness, music, organization, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, willfulness, willingness on January 31, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I have been horrible about blogging, so far out of my past routine that it seems as if that time was in a past life. In a way, it was. Life is totally different now. My outlook, my goals, what I know, what I want and don’t want. There is a clarity to my thoughts [...]
The Thoughts That Weren’t Lost
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, Bob Dylan, catastrophizing, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, legal drugs, love, mixed episode, music, nightmares, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, trauma on January 15, 2009 | 5 Comments »
I have a lot to say tonight. So much, that I know I will forget some of it, that I won’t get it down on paper and that thought will be lost until I think it again. All of these tiny thoughts, big thoughts left in the dark. Dead, really, until I can find them [...]
Wowza
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, finances, happiness, hope, independence, joy, love, music, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, willingness on January 11, 2009 | 2 Comments »
No worries, Adriana. Your blog award is the very next post which will be typed right after I finish this one. Yours takes more creativity and I have to warm up first.
Okay, a very ridiculously long time has passed since my last post. I find it PREFER-able :) to post more frequently and know [...]
