I have a lot to say tonight. So much, that I know I will forget some of it, that I won’t get it down on paper and that thought will be lost until I think it again. All of these tiny thoughts, big thoughts left in the dark. Dead, really, until I can find them [...]
Posts Tagged ‘mixed episode’
The Thoughts That Weren’t Lost
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, Bob Dylan, catastrophizing, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, legal drugs, love, mixed episode, music, nightmares, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, trauma on January 15, 2009 | 5 Comments »
Gotta Do What You’ve Gotta Do
Posted in Health, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, happiness, hope, independence, joy, Klonopin, legal drugs, love, mindfulness, mixed episode, nightmares, organization, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 27, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m barely able to keep my eyes open this morning, even though I was a good girl and went to bed at a decent time last night and got about 8 hours of sleep. I just have energy. I think it has a lot to do with the cyproheptadine I took last night. My old [...]
Reality Check
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, DBT diary card, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, dogs, mindfulness, mixed episode, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma on May 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Saturday, May 10, 2008 2:48 p.m.
Same old shit with a little twist on Friday. Depressed, anxious, self-loathing blah blah blah blah. I did a lot of numbing on Friday. Went to IOP, had a hard time listening and learning, which is, of course, what I am there for. I just couldn’t tune in, the tape [...]
Nothing Changes
Posted in Daily, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, mixed episode, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma on May 9, 2008 | 5 Comments »
Friday, May 9, 2008 8:08 a.m.
Yesterday was rough. I know, I know. Broken record. I felt really overly-energized, hyped-up, anxious, etc in the morning.
Group was pretty ick, mostly because I didn’t sleep well the night before. I kind of stumbled through the 9:00 a.m. group, then we shared diary cards. That was fine. Then, the [...]
Spinning ‘Round in the Blender
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, dialectical behavior therapy, dogs, mixed episode, sleep on May 8, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Thursday, May 8, 2008 7:30 a.m.
Head spinning, chest tightening, walls closing in, and all those DAMN THOUGHTS racing through my mind. 24/7. My upswing has turned into a mixed episode. Not only am I totally revved (and irritable), I also feel like drinking bleach crap. How lovely is that?
Yesterday afternoon went just fine, other than being [...]
