So I was sitting in the back yard, real quiet-like, admiring my surroundings, practicing some mindfulness, loving that it’s green and my flowers are blooming and I have the most amazing dog and boyfriend and KA-BLAM. Cold liquid anxiety started spilling into my chest cavity, flowing up through my throat. I almost fracking choked on it, it [...]
Posts Tagged ‘sleep’
Gimme a Break
Posted in Daily, tagged Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, mindfulness, music, PTSD, radical acceptance, sleep on March 25, 2009 | 1 Comment »
This was written yesterday…
I have a shit-ton of radical acceptance to practice. I am having a hard time accepting my current activity level. I have to walk a lot (I mean A LOT) at work and at the end of the day, my legs hurt, my feet are swollen and aching, and my back is [...]
Falling Off the Face of the Earth
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, diet, employment, finances, Klonopin, legal drugs, PTSD, relationships, sleep, trauma, weight loss on February 27, 2009 | 5 Comments »
I am fairly out of it this morning…keep that in mind as you are reading and wondering if I am drunk.
Between starting a new job, tapering off Klonopin, and taking care of an unemployed and depressed Dr. Love, I have failed to blog regularly. I believe my last blog was almost a month [...]
What’s Up, Doc?
Posted in Daily, Health, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, conflict, DBT, depression, diabetes, dialectical behavior therapy, diet, dogs, employment, Klonopin, love, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, sleep apnea, trauma, weight loss, willingness on February 3, 2009 | 1 Comment »
After three straight days of minimal sleep, I passed out on the couch last night, watching Medium, that we had DVR’d from earlier in the evening. DVR is a beautiful thing. I’m still not used to having a fancy TV or cable, and when I found out that we could set it to automatically record [...]
The Pieces Fall Together
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, finances, happiness, hope, independence, joy, love, mindfulness, music, organization, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, willfulness, willingness on January 31, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I have been horrible about blogging, so far out of my past routine that it seems as if that time was in a past life. In a way, it was. Life is totally different now. My outlook, my goals, what I know, what I want and don’t want. There is a clarity to my thoughts [...]
The Thoughts That Weren’t Lost
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, Bob Dylan, catastrophizing, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, legal drugs, love, mixed episode, music, nightmares, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, trauma on January 15, 2009 | 5 Comments »
I have a lot to say tonight. So much, that I know I will forget some of it, that I won’t get it down on paper and that thought will be lost until I think it again. All of these tiny thoughts, big thoughts left in the dark. Dead, really, until I can find them [...]
Brain Dump
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, forgiveness, guilt, happiness, hope, independence, joy, love, mindfulness, music, nightmares, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 28, 2008 | 2 Comments »
For the final 118 minutes of today, Saturday, the 27th of December, year of our Lord 2008, I am going to not care about what anyone thinks of me. I have spent far too much time today consumed by it. I am also not going to worry about that which I cannot change, which I [...]
Gotta Do What You’ve Gotta Do
Posted in Health, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, happiness, hope, independence, joy, Klonopin, legal drugs, love, mindfulness, mixed episode, nightmares, organization, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 27, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m barely able to keep my eyes open this morning, even though I was a good girl and went to bed at a decent time last night and got about 8 hours of sleep. I just have energy. I think it has a lot to do with the cyproheptadine I took last night. My old [...]
The Mother of Avoidance — Denial
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, Bob Dylan, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, effectiveness, employment, hope, joy, mindfulness, music, organization, PTSD, SAD, self-soothe, sleep, willfulness, willingness on December 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
This blog is in a state of serious disrepair and neglect. Am I, in turn, in a state of serious disrepair and neglect?
It feels like all I’ve done in November and December is sleep and work. And really, that’s about the state of it. Am I working too much? Absolutely not. I’m still technically part-time, and [...]
Working At Getting in a Rut
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, effectiveness, love, nightmares, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, sleep, trauma on October 28, 2008 | 3 Comments »
A sound night’s sleep has eluded me for the past week. I’m not quite sure what to chalk it up to, but I think maybe I have been using my sun lamp too much. That, and I’ve started eating again, which is definitely making me feel different. Nauseous and disgusting, truth be told. I suppose that’s [...]
