I have discovered the key to being happy at work — I have to be busy. When I have a “paperwork day,” I end up goofing around and not getting anything done. When I have inmates scheduled all day, I’m all over it and get everything on my “to-do” list done. That overwhelmed feeling that [...]
Posts Tagged ‘willfulness’
Fuzzy Wuzzy
Posted in Daily, tagged "me" time, anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, employment, in-laws, love, meditation, mental health, music, numbing, opposite-to-emotion, relationships, willfulness, willingness, work on April 23, 2009 | 1 Comment »
A Healthier Year
Posted in Health, tagged diet, exercise, Health, mindfulness, music, sacred self, self-soothe, weight loss, willfulness, willingness on February 2, 2009 | 1 Comment »
There’s nothing like a visit to the doctor (a walk-in clinic, nonetheless) to make one think about the decisions one makes regarding diet, exercise, bad habits, and medication. After two serious bouts with bronchitis, sinusitis, and laryngitis within a matter of a few weeks, I am thinking about quitting smoking. I am fairly motivated and [...]
The Pieces Fall Together
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, finances, happiness, hope, independence, joy, love, mindfulness, music, organization, PTSD, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, willfulness, willingness on January 31, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I have been horrible about blogging, so far out of my past routine that it seems as if that time was in a past life. In a way, it was. Life is totally different now. My outlook, my goals, what I know, what I want and don’t want. There is a clarity to my thoughts [...]
Brain Dump
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, forgiveness, guilt, happiness, hope, independence, joy, love, mindfulness, music, nightmares, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 28, 2008 | 2 Comments »
For the final 118 minutes of today, Saturday, the 27th of December, year of our Lord 2008, I am going to not care about what anyone thinks of me. I have spent far too much time today consumed by it. I am also not going to worry about that which I cannot change, which I [...]
Gotta Do What You’ve Gotta Do
Posted in Health, Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, effectiveness, employment, happiness, hope, independence, joy, Klonopin, legal drugs, love, mindfulness, mixed episode, nightmares, organization, PTSD, radical acceptance, relationships, SAD, seasonal affective disorder, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 27, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m barely able to keep my eyes open this morning, even though I was a good girl and went to bed at a decent time last night and got about 8 hours of sleep. I just have energy. I think it has a lot to do with the cyproheptadine I took last night. My old [...]
The Mother of Avoidance — Denial
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, Bob Dylan, building structure, catastrophizing, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, effectiveness, employment, hope, joy, mindfulness, music, organization, PTSD, SAD, self-soothe, sleep, willfulness, willingness on December 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »
This blog is in a state of serious disrepair and neglect. Am I, in turn, in a state of serious disrepair and neglect?
It feels like all I’ve done in November and December is sleep and work. And really, that’s about the state of it. Am I working too much? Absolutely not. I’m still technically part-time, and [...]
Avoidance
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, catastrophizing, conflict, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distraction techniques, distress tolerance, effectiveness, guilt, happiness, hope, independence, joy, mindfulness, PTSD, radical acceptance, self-soothe, trauma, willfulness, willingness on December 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
It has been over two weeks since I have last blogged. Almost three, in fact. And I really haven’t been keeping it up too well since August, even though I see it as a valuable tool. I have been choosing not to use it.
Don’t get me wrong. I get on the computer at least once [...]
Searching for Balance
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, mindfulness, PTSD, trauma, willfulness, willingness on June 18, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Wednesday, June 18, 2008 7:26 a.m.
Life has been a bit…um…busy lately. With the addition of a roommate, I find myself occupied almost all of the time. Feeling better doesn’t hurt. I’ve also been reaching out to some other people (my neighbor, a co-worker) and have been just getting out there more and doing things.
There is [...]
Hugging Trees…Literally
Posted in Neuroticism, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, building structure, DBT, DBT diary card, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, hope, Klonopin, mindfulness, PTSD, self-soothe, sleep, trauma, willfulness, willingness on June 13, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Friday, June 13, 2008
This whole actually living my life instead of avoiding it is keeping me really busy, hence no daily blog. That and I have totally been out of my morning routine because…GASP…I’m actually sleeping. Sleeping LATE…like 6:30 a.m. or 6:45 a.m. Much better than 5:30 a.m. And being active and actually awake for [...]
Doing What I Choose
Posted in Daily, tagged anxiety, Bipolar, DBT, depression, dialectical behavior therapy, distress tolerance, hope, PTSD, self-soothe, trauma, willfulness, willingness on June 4, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Wednesday, June 4, 2008 7:24 a.m.
I had a pretty good day yesterday. IOP went well and then I actually…wait for it…wait for it…WENT TO A PUBLIC PLACE WITH A GIRL FROM GROUP. I know, it’s huge. Not only did I interact, but I hung out with another person. And didn’t feel anxious. It felt totally [...]
