Bringing Reality Back

Project Reverb Day Fifteen Prompt is as follows:

Anchor | What kept you tethered in 2013?

As always, there were two people who kept me on track — DSB and Mom.  DSB had a bit of a harder time, because he is with me more, but I know that he and Mom collaborate and put their heads together to keep me afloat.

Many times this year, especially lately, it seems I have forgotten that I have bipolar disorder.  I have ignored it, ignored the signs of an upcoming episode, and lived life like a “free” person would.  You can’t do all of that when you have this issue in your life.

Just yesterday, I read a post about appreciating the severity of bipolar disorder in your life, and how you  have to keep tabs on that to stay upright.  While feeling fine, it appears that I let me guard down and let some old habits come through.  I was not, and perhaps am still not, taking it seriously enough.  In order for me to be successful, I don’t have to wallow in my disorder, but I can’t just forget about it either.

It’s so easy to do, though.  When you’re feeling fine and things are clicking along, you don’t usually stop and think about it.  I had come to a point in my life where I had almost forgotten about it.  And then it comes back to bite me and I have to start over.

One thought on “Bringing Reality Back

  1. It’s easy to get smashed in the face if you’ve let your guard down, which is very easy to do if you’ve been feeling balanced for awhile. I’m a slow learner so it can take many times for me to learn how not to be blindsided. Just remember that it’s progress not perfection.


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