Project Reverb Day Fifteen Prompt is as follows:
Anchor | What kept you tethered in 2013?
As always, there were two people who kept me on track — DSB and Mom. DSB had a bit of a harder time, because he is with me more, but I know that he and Mom collaborate and put their heads together to keep me afloat.
Many times this year, especially lately, it seems I have forgotten that I have bipolar disorder. I have ignored it, ignored the signs of an upcoming episode, and lived life like a “free” person would. You can’t do all of that when you have this issue in your life.
Just yesterday, I read a post about appreciating the severity of bipolar disorder in your life, and how you have to keep tabs on that to stay upright. While feeling fine, it appears that I let me guard down and let some old habits come through. I was not, and perhaps am still not, taking it seriously enough. In order for me to be successful, I don’t have to wallow in my disorder, but I can’t just forget about it either.
It’s so easy to do, though. When you’re feeling fine and things are clicking along, you don’t usually stop and think about it. I had come to a point in my life where I had almost forgotten about it. And then it comes back to bite me and I have to start over.