Forgive me, my friends, but my head is in a dark place.
I heard the song posted below for the first time when I had made up my mind that I was going to sing in my parents’ friend’s band, The Lounge Lizards. I was out of my damn mind. This is what happens when a manic 20-something gets told she’s a great singer for some goofing off around the campfire.
Thank God I’m not that manic 20-something, but this song still speaks to me. About how it feels like you’re always fucking it up, even when you know better. About how luck isn’t on your side. The video — going to a dirt race track with an abusive boyfriend, eating sushi from the grocery store as you watch the cars go by, knowing by the way he’s drinking beer just what is going to be in store for you in the evening. Feeling like no one in the world understands and you may as well give up trying to make yourself understood.