Pick Me Up
What is the one word or phrase that immediately cheers you up when you hear it?
The last two years have left me extremely isolated. I find myself with a few blog friends, and family. Now, they’re all amazing people, and now I have more time to spend with them…talking, chatting, texting, emailing. There’s just more.
My favorite phrase is:
New message!
or
New email!
I don’t think the people I am friends with, nor my family realize how much just a text or an email can make my day. I mean, it can literally turn it around, especially here lately.
I have been trying to reach out more, but at the same time not wanting to reach out too much and seem needy. But now there are no restrictions on me, and I am starving for even a little bit of attention. Even a “hey, how’s your day going?” is going to spark a long response from me.
I’m sure that can get annoying, and I know friends and family are sick to death of me talking about DSB, but it’s where my head’s at right now. I’m trying to move on, but you can’t resolve two years in a week’s time.
I am not trying to say that my family and friends are not paying me enough attention. What I’m trying to say is that, any communication, is cherished and changes my day. My mom might text me to pick up some rice for Cinco de Mayo (which was one of the best meals I’d had in a long time, Madre), and I appreciate her doing that perhaps over the top because there is a part of me that feels so very alone.
It’s hard to go from living your life with someone who is always around and always right on top of you, to being, well, free. That lack of attention, even if it was negative attention, is noticeable, palpable. My parents are doing a great job of including me and making sure I don’t have too much alone time, but there is only so much they can do.
Most of this, I just need to get through. I need to settle down into being alone and get into a routine. I know that. But while I’m doing that, I’m still going to jump for joy at every new text message, every new email, every new call. Probably for awhile, would be my guess.
RosieSmrtiePants 
when i’m manic i relish attention, i eat it like a hungry bear. when i’m down i hide in hibernation, only dipping a toe into the outside world. at least you have insight into your own behavior and support, it really does make all the difference 🙂
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Yes, insight makes all the difference, dearest McKarlie. And I do appreciate all YOUR support!
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Within the blogging world nothing cheers me up more than “Great post.” I’m going to have to give it some serious thought about the outside world. It shouldn’t be, but it is, a difficult question. (Pondering)
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Do give it some serious thought. You might be surprised by what you find!
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A little human companionship, even when it’s virtual, is a beautiful thing. 🙂
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It really is. And it’s great knowing I can always count on you to be there for me. I am truly grateful to call you my friend!
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Aw shucks, the feeling is totes mutual!
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I could have written this post a year ago, when I first started blogging and didn’t want to be the “needy, depressed girl” (my label for me, not saying you are). I finally realized that people meant it when they said to reach out, or that my blog was my space and forget anyone who couldn’t see the benefit of working through things on here.
This is still a new situation too, so don’t even think twice about it. If you need to say it, say it. We have all been there, in one form or another.
((hugs))
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I am starting to turn toward seeking out more support, but like I said, am still having a hard time “whining” on the blog, even though its there for my own use. The people that read this blog have been very supportive and no one has told me to shut up yet, so I should just roll with it. 😀
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I am grateful am I to have you as a friend though we will probably never meet in person. It can be a lonely world — but you make mine better every day. Just so you know.
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Marilyn, you’re so sweet. I feel the same way. And I appreciate you saying it, because ya know, sometimes we just need to hear these things!
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I am exactly the same. When someone has commented on one of my posts, that little notification makes me so happy. I really love being part of a blogging community. I think I might prefer my online life to my real one haha… (eek..)
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Big eek! I know when I realized how much I was avoiding being at home, and how I’d rather be online, I realized there just may be a problem.
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