Made it through Turkey Day by the skin of my teeth. If you have to wonder about that one, check back through the last few posts, and I’ll also give a recap. DSB and I arguing. Day Five of quitting smoking. Ungrateful children at Mom’s Thanksgiving. Dad and therapist stoking the fires of mine and DSB’s arguments. Much angst about all sorts of things, really. Anything that could be angsted over, was, again and again.
And now we’re done, right? I mean, like until next year. All of this familial stress and jonesing for a smoke and self-doubt in the brain and people influencing you to pick fights with your significant other…it’s all done for this year, right? Well, I wish it was, and maybe part of it can be, if we just work at it a little bit.
I have never been one for New Years Eve resolutions, and I’m not going to start this year. What I am going to do is start a new list…a list of everything I hope to be thankful for by Thanksgiving 2014. This list, of course, is not all-inclusive, but it covers the big ones. And to you naysayers out there who say I should be thankful for what I have, well, I am. Thankful, that is. I am thankful also that I can dream and hope for a bigger, brighter future, which is what this list is all about.
In no particular order, I give you the “By Next Thanksgiving (2014), I’ll be thankful for…”
1) A brand new addition to our family. My sister and husband are having a little boy and the entire family is ecstatic.
2) Newer and deeper understanding of DSB, that I hope to gain through mind control, bribery, and long and meaningful chats.
3) An improved relationship with my mother, in that she stops calling me her kitchen bitch, and I stop running home when she makes me feel like a child.
4) One year smoke free. Can you imagine what the stats would be like?
5) A stellar Christmas 2013. Whoo-boy, did you see the tree that Rose put up?! Zowwwiie!
6) The ability to walk at least 3 miles, starting in short stretches.
7) The health and happiness of the pups, especially watching over Rascal not getting heartworms again and Kizzie’s bum leg and skin allergies. Hey, here’s to being thankful on Thanksgiving 2014 that Kizzie’s skin allergies have been figured out and we can stop feeding her Zyrtec to no avail.
8) Being able and trusted to take care of my nephew, on my own, for at least one hour.
9) DSB being smoke-free. A girl can dream, right?
10) Domestic bliss, in that my house helps me along the way as I clean it. Lovely hope and dream.