The tiny miracles, true friendship, amazing family, beloved critters, and lovely events in my life that have made life worth living this week:
1) The ability to send an “unpublished” post to a few friends, have those friends reply in earnest, and wind up with an email chain full of great advice and love. Thank you…stuff like that makes my week, any week.
2) The beauty that I was able to start again with Goddess of Mindfulness, the ORIGINAL therapist to end all therapists. She has been a great support to me in what has been a really difficult week. I have never had a mental health professional be more supportive and more willing to spend the time. And to genuinely care — that might be the best part.
3) That a tiny miracle, a new baby, may be growing in the belly of one of my dearest friends. That I will be able to be witness to this little one from pregnancy on up, is precious.
4) The trust that QoB and the Big Dawg have in Blue Cat and myself, to run both stores while they are away at a conference. The Rock and I did it last year, and it seems that the Big Dawg is getting better at ceding intense control. That, and we’re trusted — that is the big part.
5) The resiliency of the Kizzer Wizzer. She had been so accustomed to me being at home 24/7 when I was sick, and now it seems I am gone all the time. She has transitioned beautifully and is still a happy little dog — she gives me no reason for guilt.
6) The ability to end the week on a high note, feeling good, feeling positive and optimistic, and most importantly, living in the moment. The weenie roast at the end of the week was perhaps the best time I have had, with friends, in quite some time.
7) The reaffirmation that I made the right decision in not having children. It is lovely to watch friends’ and families’ children grow, but I know deep in my heart that I could never do it myself.
8) The wisdom, courage, and forethought to remove myself from toxic situations before they become too ugly. Truly beautiful wise mind.
9) Noticing the serious side effects of a temporary medication after one day, being mindful to it, and deciding to not continue. My mental health is a priority to me, and I would rather have painfully swollen feet and ankles, than to be up peeing every two hours, all night long.
10) The sheer joy of having a big bag of ice in the refrigerator, so I can have my water as cold as I like it, thus motivating me to drink more water.