Things have seriously been hectic around here, getting ready for the holidays, making plans, cancelling plans, changing plans, making more plans, plans, plans, plans. I figure that since everyone is asleep (QoB included, since 8:00 p.m….she must have finally eaten dinner, bwhahaha!), now would be a good time to crank out a post, as I have not done so in a few days.
It looks like it will be a busy week. We have inventory at the store, DSB’s surgery on the 2nd, and still Christmas to celebrate again, x2. DSB and I started our own tradition to open presents on Christmas Eve. He loved his Dixie horn thing-a-ma-jigger for his truck and was proudly wearing his “Don’t Tread On Me” hat today. I am enjoying some lovely Yankee candles and a new votive holder. And then QoB and the Big Dawg surprised me with a dishwasher (that is totally going to change my life), which DSB will install as another part of his Christmas gift to me.
I don’t like the saying, “I feel so blessed.” I really feel like it is overused and cliched to death, although it might state accurately how you’re feeling. But even though I don’t like the feeling, I see where the emotion comes from. I truly am very fortunate to have the people in my life that I do. And, not being a spiritual person, it is odd for this to come out of my mouth, but I truly believe some special force put them in my life for a reason. I would not be standing today without the three of them and I do thank the universe for them every night.
I was getting stressed out tonight, talking to my mom and DSB, and my mom left the room for a minute. He looked at me and said, “Rose, you know that everything is really going to be all right.” He says that all the time, and I guess I don’t listen, but this time I really heard him. His eyes were looking into mine so intensely, and it is almost like the words reverberated through my very being. My heart almost broke right in half, because I know, as long as I have him, everything really will be ok. I’m getting teary just thinking about the conversation. And I told him that. That, yes, as long as I had him, things would always be okay.
It is a beautiful thing that lets us believe in a person so strongly, with so little doubt. I know he will always take care of me and that I will always take care of him. I know he’s not going anywhere and neither am I. I know that, through our spats and slight failings in life, we still have each other and we will always push through the bullshit to get to the real root of the problem so it can be fixed. I truly do believe that, with DSB by my side, I can make it through anything.